A Legacy for His Glory: My Spiritual Journey Through Uncertainty
A Legacy for His Glory: My Spiritual Journey Through Uncertainty
The rarity of my unknown genetic heart issues continues to amaze me, but not in the way you might think.
Each day, I face a reality where I don’t know if it might be my last. This uncertainty has transformed not just my physical journey but my spiritual one as well. Every beat of my heart, however erratic, is a reminder of the urgency to live fully for Jesus, leaving a legacy that glorifies Him.
In the last 23 months, my heart has been through:
55 episodes where my heart soared over 170 BPM, even while I was sleeping (Tachycardia)
19 moments where my heart simply stopped. (Pauses)
4 instances where my heart rate dropped below 40 BPM. (Bradycardia)
5 episodes where my heart sustained over 110 BPM for 4 hours. ( Atrial Tachycardia )
21 additional episodes of unexplained rapid heartbeats over 110 BPM for 10 minutes or more. (a-Fib)
I’ve been diagnosed with congestive heart failure, and every day I witness my heart’s wild fluctuations—from a resting 95 BPM to 130 in seconds, plummeting just as quickly.
Standing or sitting can send my heart rate swinging up or down by 15-40 BPM. At times it’s like I can feel my heart straining, and when I check the monitor, I see it dropping fast.
But amidst these physical struggles, my focus remains clear. I am intentionally striving to leave a legacy, to make a mark on this world that points directly to Jesus.
Every moment I’m given is a chance to share His love, to comfort others with the comfort I’ve received, and to break the stigma surrounding struggles like mine.
I don’t know what tomorrow holds, but I know Who holds tomorrow, and my desire is to live in a way that glorifies Him, no matter how many or few days I have left.
